ohh the shame!

[*blond*]

it's ok. don't do or say anything you don't want to. and it's kinda weird how it works, most people knew i was gay before i did!

[Narcissus]

Hey with me most people didn't believe me when I told 'em! They just had to get used to it....

[*blond*]

who was the first person you told? mine was jen! cept she kinda forced me to realise that i was.. does that still count?

[Narcissus]

O' course it still counts!

I was in a maths class at the time, I just kinda said it in general conversation. So about 6 people got told at the same moment. It was really quite funny coz they all just went quiet for a second and then continued chatting with me like nothing major had happened, lol.

[Anny]

that's cool that they took it so easily! i hope people do the same if i tell them someday...

[*blond*]

lol, im really honest without myself and people around me, so i couldnt keep it in for long (though i managed to) but yeh, it's so worth letting people know, with the exception of saturday night where i was at a party, and amanda (one of my close friends) decided to YELL "NIKKI'S A LESBIAN" and stuff like that every two minutes, that's just plain fucking inconsiderate and RUDE. but i got her back, dont you worry about that..

and lol! will that's so.. random!?

[Narcissus]

Yeh, random indeed. I guess I got bored of waiting for the right time, that, and I couldn't decide who to tell first. It was like a kid in a candy store moment. So much choice lol

[Anny]

*löööl* blond! if i have the money i'll come to visit you

[Narcissus]

lol welcome to the *Blond* fanclub

[t.A.T.u.4ever]

Hey i want to be in the *blond* fanclub!! hehehe

[*blond*]

argh! not a fanclub, that means screaming women and.. hey i can get used to that
no not really, i think one'll do me.. wait, no, that sounds wrong. i mean i just want one *re-reads* yeh that sounds better. but im flattered by the gesture. lol

anyone come visit me!!! seriously, attention span of an eraser here! im BORED.

[Narcissus]

Patience young one, As soon as my zimmer frame gets back from the shop I'll be right over!

[*blond*]

your uh..what frame?

and will, my god, guess who was flirting with me yesterday in home ec? *is confused*

[*blond*]

*just remembered something from today*

there's this guy called tom. and he likes me, or loves me.. something like that, he knows im gay though, but he still likes me or whatever. on the weekend we went to my friend phoebe's suprise bday party, right? so at this party mostly everyone played spin-the-bottle, everyone knows what that is. and he was like being all funny and kissing the guys! it was so funny, even though i was getting cut at him coz he was trying to get close to me *stabs him* it was making me uncomfortable. but anyway, since then everyone's been talking about him at school, with the kissing guys thing. he got really mad yesterday and lashed out at all his friends and walked off. and today in career education, tuttle (popular dude) said something to piss tom off and tom goes "hey man, we talked about this" and tuttle goes "i wasnt listening!" and it was REALLY FUNNY i like started laughing. and tom gave me this look like 'that's so not funny' and he kicked his desk over and everything went on the floor. then he was all pissed for the rest of the lesson, and every now and then he was saying things like 'fucking hell, i told them to stop, im not gay!'.

just me or do you think that's a little overeacting? my god, ok, so he's not gay, why cant he see the joke in it? everyone knows people do things to get a reaction, and he's giving them what they want on a silver platter! he shits me off so bad. seriously, he was like, seeking attention from people, to get them to sympathize with him. i didnt look him in the face or speak to him since then. bastard. now HE know what it's like to feel uncomfortable.

sorry, i had to get that out, it was making me really angry.

[Narcissus]

No problem, thats what we're here for. I read about the Tom incident on your LJ a few days ago. He may be overreacting, or he may be in the closet....y'know hitting nerves an all that. I was certainly like that just before I told the world. But you know better than I do, and you definitely know how bad an idea it is of my to try to judge things ALL the way out here. We can have a more detailed conversation about this on MSN or E-Mail me about it if you want.




And by the way,THIS is a zimmer frame



Ooooooh yeah....WHO was flirting with you?