ohh the shame!

[Sphinx]

and i havent talked to bre in so long coz i'm trying to get over her, and it's working gradually.

hehhe lucky You...so You don't go to this same school,class??

[*blond*]

i do go to the same school, and we're in the same home room. but we're not in school right now. this is our summer break. i go back to school on the 25th of january.
bre called me yesterday, she wants me to come up to the coast and stay with her, she says 'the daytimes are ok, but it's soo boring at night!!'. so i dont think i'm going to go... i've been thinking about telling her im gay, not such a great idea, but she needs to know sometime.

[styvisor]

Good luck if you do tell her. Your a braver person than me, thats for sure

[Sphinx]

Blond:I thought she knew... :blink: ...

[Narcissus]

Very brave decision *Blond* I told everyone when I was your age, my mother didnt speak to me for a week. (not much encouragement, I know...sorry lol) My friends were all cool with it though. It's much easier to tell someone without seeing their face, but it kinda makes it seem cowardly if you know what I mean. Though its sooooo hard to sit down with someone and tell them a secret like that.

[*blond*]

Sphinx- she has no idea! she calls me 'lesbian' coz she just likes to tease me. doesnt bother me, so i let her carry on doing so. you must be completely confused. just ask me if you want a little more explaination.

Narcissus- your mum didnt speak to you for a week?! that's horrible. my mum read my diary, and found out that way. then i told my dad, and he told her. then my mum told my sister!! (my sister doesnt like to think outside the box, she couldnt even imagine her sister being a lesbian). yes, i agree, i couldn't sit bre down and say 'i'm a lesbian' i'd have to do it over the phone. it was hard enough telling my dad, and my councellor. let alone someone i've been in love with since june.

[Sphinx]

Yeah i got a bit confused...so she doesn't suspect anything??..

and I think You should tell her..I told my freinds everything and they amazed me with their reaction...they're the best in the world!!!

[Narcissus]

I think you should tell her as well, it'll make you feel better in the long run. Keeping it to yourself can only make it worse.

[*blond*]

Yeah i got a bit confused...so she doesn't suspect anything??..

i think everyone is a suspect, but i reckon she does suspect me.
i would tell her, problem is that she's pretty straight forward, doesn't like to think outside the box sort of person. i've told a few of my other friends, they were cool with it .

[Anni]

Damn *blond* you're in a mess i wish you courage and strength because she seems to be the type that likes to tease.

[Narcissus]

Maybe you should go crazy, grab her by the hair and plant a big wet one on her! lol that would be a sight!

[Anni]

My most embarrassing moment was a while ago but here it comes. After fifth grade I went to a summer camp in Hungary. On the boarder of Poland a border guard came to our bus to check out the passports. Well i sneaked behind him and cuckolded (i dont know if tis the right word) him. I rose my hand above his head with my fingers up just like antennas or antlers. YES I did cuckold a Polish boarder guard! Then somebody grabbed my arm and dragged me away. It was my teacher oooh my i was so ashamed. I don’t know what went into me… i was just fooling and i made myself a complete fool

[Sphinx]

Yeah i got a bit confused...so she doesn't suspect anything??..

i think everyone is a suspect, but i reckon she does suspect me.
i would tell her, problem is that she's pretty straight forward, doesn't like to think outside the box sort of person. i've told a few of my other friends, they were cool with it .

That's quite a good test...sort of.She's you best friend so I 'm pretty sure she'll understand...I think she will feel a bit uncomfortable in your presence for some time but it will pass.

[styvisor]

I think this quote should sort of help you when (if) you speak to Bre. Its from a classic film called Trading Places by the way:

Billy Ray Valentine: What if I can't do this job, Coleman? What if I'm not what they expected?
Coleman: Just be yourself, sir. Whatever happens, they can't take that away from you.

I meant for Colemans quote for you more than Billy-Rays.... Hope it helps you (even a tinsey tiny bit B) )

[*blond*]

i think i will tell her, i like Narcissus's idea though! except it's more like the other way around, because it's happened before.

thanks Styvisor, i'm totally sick of pretending to be straight. it annoys me. i guess i just have to get bre at a moment when she's being sensible.. that may take a few weeks.

and Anni- that's hilarious! i've never ever done that to someone before. apart from maybe disrespecting my teachers. yelling/ throwing stuff at them, the usual.