It's so much time that I'm and I'm not here...I'm half and half....but, you see, these days are so awful for me....holidays are always afwful....
I mean..lonliness became deepest and hurts...hurts so much this poor heart..who's in search of some love....
These days I stayed in my bed, thinking of life...seein' everythin' black...without a way to escape..
These days brought me a special person but he's not for me...and...I fear..
...I'm afraid to lose him..between us there're 500 Km....
...God...I'm becoming a bone...!!!!!!...A vegetable...........
but .... I CAN'T ABSOLUTELY LIVE WITHOUT HIM....I CAN'T....I FEEL LIKE I'M DYIN' MY SOUL IS COMPLETELY DARK.....
GUYS...I'M OUT....IS IT NORMAL????.....
I JUST WANT TO PASS OUT....
WHY LOVE DON'T REACH ME????
WHY...WHY DID I HAVE TO SPEND 23 YEARS ALONE????
WHY WHY AM I SO ALONE?....
NO FRIENDS...NO LOVE....WHY????
ONLY YOU GUYS....ONLY THIS WONDERFUL FORUM..AND ANOTHER....
AND THAT GUY...THAT GUY WHO "LOVES ME" (LIKE A FRIEND I INTEND)...
THE ONLY ONE...EXCEPT MY FAMILY....
my heart is breaking...I'm not strong enough to go on....I can't....I got no power...no more.....
...I just want to excuse..for these crazy word...but I'm really goin' mad.....
wish you a really wonderful goodnight and, of course, so so so much love...
-hook-
(I promise there will be no post like this by me.....I promise...pardon me for today...but I'm really out....)
I LOVE YOU ALL......
this is for you.....
I love the Sunset..and this one is taken from Modena...a little city of my Nation...who's situated in Emilia Romagna....not so far from me.....

These days are the days in which I pray God, an my Grand Dad....to take me with them.....so...finallly it could be possible to have some love.....
LOVE GUYS...LOVE EVERYONE AROUND YOU...DON'T STOP YOUR HEARTS.....

"I Am A Weak Heart.A Weak Heart To Break"