HurtingYourself

[*blond*]

you lot make me laugh. i'm sure hospitals arent that bad if you're not the patient. my sister is really bad with hospitals. last time she went in one she was looking at the exit sign the whole time.

[MahaRishiSriSriX]

i can't stand hospitals, and i've never been in one. smells like death.
if a friend of mine is in hospital, i can't stay there for long, I'll start feeling ill.

[Sphinx]

I like blood,sharp tools and vampires so I guess it's a bit like hospital itself!

[styvisor]

As a patient, hospital food sucks. As a visitor, the foods nice olleyes:

[*blond*]

ohh dont start me on hospital food! *mumbles*. horrible shit

[styvisor]

Yes... Yes it is. I think the average price of a hospital meal in Britain is about £1.20 per patient. Thats pretty pants

[Narcissus]

Well the way things are going now, you'll not get a chance to lie down never mind get the chance to have a meal.

[styvisor]

You'll end up going into a hospital with something minor and end up coming out missing a part of your body due to MRSA nowadays (possibly)

[JustMe90]

i hate hospitals. ive spend too much time of my short life in it... when i was only 8 weeks old they operated me on the heart, when i was 3 or something like this i was in a hospital for 2 weeks couse i was very ill, later when i was 6 my mum got ill (cancer) and i was in hospital very often and finally hen i was 8 and 9 my mum spent a lot of time and hospitals couse she got cancer again and finally died. i think you dont wonder why i dont like hospitals....

[*blond*]

that's terrible.
i cant tell you i know how you feel coz i dont. and im sorry that i don't.
my councellor just cancelled her appointment with me coz she had to go into hospital to see someone.. i'm really hoping it isn't something bad. she didnt go to hospital when i attempted suicide, so this muct be serious, or personal.

and what's MRSA? sounds scary...

[darkleon]

"I dont mind being dejected and rejected, but I'm not gonna be ashamed about it. At least pain is real. You look around and you see nothing is real, at least the pain is real."

[Anni]

I kind of pinch myself with nails really bad so that it leaves ugly marks on my skin but i just can't help to stop it. I've started to think lately that it may be similar to cutting. I mean it's not quite it but the backgrounds or nature may be compareable. I don't hate myself i couldn't because i don't know myself. Maybe i think pain would make me feel myself. It doesn't it only makes me get to know the pain. (i get these philosophical thoughts that could fill the paiges so i must quit the topic now)
I can't even think about cutting myself or doing anything like that. I freak out when people do such things especially my best friend. It's just maybe i've experienced too mutch pain (physical and mental) already.
I've never liked films witch are mainly just about butchery. I used to do some rock climbing and i fell from 3 meters so that the elbow of my left arm went backwards. Now after that seeing sutch films make me relly nervous and unconfident so that sometimes it makes me feel sick. This elbow thing is not the only ugly thing that has happened to me nor it is the worst.
Sometimes i get this supernatural sensibility about how fragile i am and how fragile the whole world or life really is...
And sometimes i think that i should go get some mental councelling, but my faith in psychologists is shallow. They can't make the reasons of my problems go away. I want to be independent and to learn to cope with problems by myself as much as i can.
Still i concider myself positive person i know how to laugh and i can see the beauty in simple things, difficulties make me appreciate this knowlage even more

[Anni]

This topic makes me remind a great song: Hurt by Johhny Cash.

[*blond*]

you dont have to go to a psychologist thingo. i mean, i go to councelling, and it helped me a lot. now i'm back on track.

you sound like i did when i was going through a hard time, with the nails and things, it is self harm. i pierced my arm once... i still have the scars. it's not worth it. trust me, i have disgusting marks all over my arms. the cutting only progresses into something worse once you start. it's like an addiction. drugs for example, except you're harming the outside of your body, not just the inside as well. remember the dreaded word, infection?

[JustMe90]

oh im so depressed. i have started cutting myself again. i dindt do it since september. and now i have 4 deep cuts (about 10 cm long) in my leg. i dont wanted to do it but i just couldnt controle myself