ahh i do believe i havent posted in a while, 2 days or so

so i'll have to dig something up to put in here... umm. aha! i'll post a poem i wrote the night before i went into hospital.. sad sad times
'WHAT IF'- by ME (*blond*)
i cry
as i remember that you dont love me
the tears sting my wounds
my open wounds you've caused
you tore me open with my own jealousy
watching what i cant have, before my eyes
put a knife in my heart
coz i'll never be in yours
twisted it, everytime you look my way
and meesin' up my head coz i'm constantly thinking...
'what if?'
what if i died tomoro
would you love me then?
only when there's no one else
would you cling to me
and im still constantly thinking as your gaze catches mine...
'what if?'
but you could never love me, the same that i love you
and you could never feel the pain, ive felt by you
the jealousy you see in me, will never be in you
you'll never have that nagging voice inside your head....
'what if?'
what if one day you saw me
the way ive seen you for so long
what if that hunger i have for you
was returned, finally...
'what if?'
give me some closure
if my love's not wanted here
dont keep me hanging on
to the only words that can make me,
and break me...
'what if?'
that's one of my worst poems from that time, i've written better ones since. ohh, and feel free to post your own in here, i'd like to read them.
