ohh the shame!

[Narcissus]

As do I my American cousin, As do I

[icyblueyes1]

haha, so proper

[Narcissus]

Yes I am a spohisticated Englishman, old chap. Tally ho, pip pip, whatwhat eh!

Urgh not likely, thats SOUTH England, UP THE NORTH!

[*blond*]

fucking oath, i havent been on in ages. here's the end of the story for you, warning, if you want a happy ending, you wont get it, but if your curiousity is getting the better of you then go ahead; *breathes deeply* here goes..

around the end of april, bre started getting closer with this other girl, kristen, we all used to go out and get sloshed, a bunch of friends. but i couldnt help but feel i was replaced (and rightly so) so bre and i went to the gold coast, we got really drunk and made out with a bunch of people (including each other) we made out twice, and i had my hand up her shirt. things were alright for a week after that, then we had a two week-long fight, i was torn up inside. a friend of mine confessed that bre had told her that she was bi, and she liked me from november til march, then stopped. once again, torn up inside and hoping somehting might still be there so..
we made up and kept on having little fights and stuff, tuesday before the holidays i went to her house after school and told her how i felt about her. she confessed she liked me a while ago, not now. and gradually we slipped apart, we dont talk all that much anymore. but we're still good friends. i dont love her anymore, i like a lot of different people.
and so ends my story, but i am happy.

[Narcissus]

I know you probably hate my guts, but im happy for you, i really am. I'm glad that it worked out for you

[ioana]

Hi all of you!
I also got an embarassing story to tell(well for me it's morelike tragical..... )So here it is:
Back in highschool I was totally in love with a girl.I was waching her for
about half a year...and then I told her how I felt(I was such a naive foool)
and guess what....she was a homophobe(did I wrote that well?)!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to school after that and waching her laughing at me with her friends was the most embarassing period of my whole life(I could not
eat for two weeks....

[aLan4ever]

dont pay attention to them, they're so full of theirselves! I had that kind of a religion teacher and one time he went on and on about the wrongness of gay-relationships and I totally freaked out and yelled at him , I was really pissed off (but they dont know that I'm like that, just the way I am...) so everybody laughed and stuff and I started blushing very hard ... I was so afraid that they would find out... but my anger was to big to keep inside. you know Sarah Bettens? You should listen to her song "Not Insane" thats a really good song it defenetly makes me feel better everytime I meet a homofobick (or whatever) person!!!

I recently told a friend of mine about me and she was so totally cool with it! not that I'm in love with her or something... but I do like a girl I know alot but I dont thinks shes into girls... I always do very imberassing things when I'm with her! sometimes I get this really weird reactions of her and stuff but I dont think it will ever work... we will see what the future will bring!!

xx
Marieke

[ioana]

Hi aLan4ever!
I don't know Sarah Bettens,but I will look after that,thanks for the tip!
it wasn't that easy not paying attention to them when whenever they saw
me they sad:here comes that little lesbian loco-girl and things like that.....
But anyway I'm really happy that your friend reacted well!i hope some day my frieds would know and still talk to me
p.s.you must have been so cool and brave to yell at your teacher !

[t.A.T.u.4ever]

Everyone looks at me weird because they think im a lesbian which i am but i've never told anyone because im in the popular group with all the cheerleaders and all the pretty girls and if i told them im afraid they won't except me.

[ioana]

... I always do very imberassing things when I'm with her!

well yes,that is soo familiar... That happens to me too,my face becomes
all red and I just don't know where to look even though she just says
"Hi!". Not to mention the stupidities I say

[t.A.T.u.4ever]

And also my parents are so against gays they would probably throw me out of the house if they knew thats why i can't tell anyone.Thats why i write on the internet you can just express your feelings without losing friends and your family.

[Anny]

that sounds pretty hard... but i think someday you have to tell them about your feelings! (well i haven't done it either but i'll do so when the right moment has come...) so do you have a girlfriend or whatever? that would change the situation... i can't belive that there are still people on this planet who are against gays! i heared about 3/4! (of course, most of the 1/4 who do accept are gay themselfs...)

[aLan4ever]

@ t.A.T.u.4ever: my parents too! I really dont want to tell them because I think they will make fun of me all the time when families around and stuff.
If you add me on msn I'll send you the song!

@ioana: use your middle-finger!! and look at them like you're ready to kick their pefetic asses! show them your sure about yourself and like you dont care what they think of you becuase they can see that you will not pay attention to whatever they think because you think they are not worth it! (is that understandable?) or dont even look at them at all and put your chin up high! you are who you are and you should be proud of that (look who's talking... like I'm am )
ok

about that girl... we are moving to another country anyway so I might as well tell her what I am. There was this one time it was the 9th of July (my birthday) and my friends organised a big birthday/saying-good-bye- party and everyone was in swimming suit (they kinda kidnapped me so I wasnt but I was in the pool anyway) and then the girl and me went to the bathroom.. when she was done she came out running and jumped in my back and hit me on my ass (like you do with a horse) and yelled come on! I was so surprised that I fell over and we end up on the floor... ended up with a scratches ... then I stood up and she jumped again and she hit me again on the same spot and then I started running and jumped in the swimming pool together, we were so close then I dunno, does it mean anything (we weren't drunk or something)?

I made a fairytale for her birthday (wich is soon) and a puppet that was originaly darth vader but I made it look like her (it matches to the fairytale) and a little box full of things that are memories to the times we were together.

Xx

[*blond*]

And also my parents are so against gays they would probably throw me out of the house if they knew thats why i can't tell anyone.Thats why i write on the internet you can just express your feelings without losing friends and your family.

must be hard, but if they threw you out, you could come live with me! *laughs* ill have a gay shelter! but yeh *won't joke now* it's a very hard thing to tell your parents, especially if they're openly against gays. i mean, it was hard enough telling my parents even though they werent against it at all. i think your parents would really have to be close to you, and truly love you, to let you teach them that it's OK to be gay, my god, it's not the end of the world, you know? i've taught my mum, if not both of my parents that i can be happy, and exactly the same person as before i realized i was gay. and they may be all 'it's wrong!!!!' and you can be like 'if being honest with yourself and the people you love is wrong then yeh, im wrong, what the fuck is the point of trusting people you love and who love you, if you can't tell them who you are? if you cant be honest with them?' i used that on my sister. and she was just like *silent*

im not gona lie to you, not everyone will be cool with you being gay, but the majority will, well, at my school/friendship group anyway. but you said you're in the group with the cheerleaders and stuff? well, that could be harder than usual, but seriously, if they can't accept you then they arent real friends. i mean, my friends take the piss outa me all the time, but as long as you can take the joke (though sometimes when someone jokes and it's bad, you'll know if it's a joke or someone takin a stab at you, then you tell them to piss off or i'll come and tell them to, whatever suits!) i sometimes take the piss out of myself even! but im very comfortable with who i am, i dont prance around screaming 'IM GAY!!!' coz that's just HUMILIATING, if im friends with someone i just say 'look, im a lesbian,and if you cant take it then fine, i dont care what you think'. but with that even, it's like.. you have to be comfortable with yourself to be able to tell a lot of people. i told a few friends at first when i wasnt so happy with myself, and their reactions of how comforatble they were with me, just made me feel great.

it depends on the kind of person you are, im sure ill find out soon enough if you're introverted or extroverted, and all that stuff. but just.. make sure you don't let it get you down, coz out there there's so many people who'll love you for who you are. including me and the rest of people on this forum. and if you need support or anything, email me, im more than happy to help (this goes for everyone else as well)

and im done now, lol. finally! i wrote too much when i come on here...

[t.A.T.u.4ever]

thanks anny,aLan4ever,and blond for your support but i just can't see my parents being okay withit and i just don't want to to upset them but i'll tell them when the time right.As for my friends i think they already kinda know because they always joke around with me saying stuff like "i'll still be your friend but just don't touch me"and they start laughing.But i still love my friends to death!